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The true alchemists do not change lead into gold they change the world into words
-William H. Gass
-William H. Gass
Hello again, and welcome back to week 7 of my blog posts. The focus of this post is to draw a connection to the 3 links below from The Wizard of OZ, and how they relate to my own narrative. In the legendary screenplay, adapted by beloved novels of the same name, protagonist Dorothy gets lost in a foreign world, and must go on a journey to find the answers she so desperately needs to return home. Much like this tale, I go on a journey of self discovery, and relize its me who holds the keys to the answers I look for. Being in a situation where I am not in alignment with my goals, I recognize my own value and own desires are all I need to ensure my happy life. Whether being stranded after a storm, or having to own up to your faults as hard as it may be, eventually we learn something valuable in the end from the experiences we go though. I for one received a life lesson, shaping me to become who I am today, and this posts shall highlight the links between Dorothys lessons and mine in my story.
Scenes interpretation (video-text performances) Wizard of Oz: If I Only Had The Brain, Heart, Nerve
Rationale My narrative allows me to travel in my brain, because it forces me to open a door I haven’t in a while, and experience the feelings all over again. Through this process, not only am I remember as I felt as I pour my heart out on the page, I am able to step back as a writer, especially years later with more knowledge, and experience the event in a new light. I am able to understand things about myself I didn’t then, and being tasked with having to write about it makes me dive even deeper, thus through this the lesson is even deeper. As I remember the old me at this moment, I travel in my heart, and as I write I can reimagine myself in the car, and how I felt, the uncertainty, the nervousness, I panicked out of my mind. I have struggled with anxiety in the past, so its interest to reflect on a moment as a child. There are also things and moments where I am like “damn, why did I have to wait so long to tell this person this? Or “god, that moment made me so feel awkward! Something I realized after writing this that comforted me for my life now is to know, even years later, I have similar moments, when I’m freaking out about something, but it's usually nothing. I can say to myself. Olivia, see, you anticipate something so terrible, but it's usually not as bad as it seems from a distance. Going into the nerve elements of meaningful storytelling, I think everyone has different definitions on what is meaningful to them. Something I think that affects readers, and just relating this to the wizard of oz, each character put their own meaning on what they wanted. They gave the things they wanted power. That's what set the stakes. Like for me, I I had a belief I would let my mom down, so I lied, but this was because I gave meaning to something more materialistic, or something that would give a better appearance of myself, if I played a sport like my mom. You can compare this to Dorothy wanting to go home, or the Tin man wanting a heart, they both set these stakes so high, without realizing all the incredible things they were doing together, and they all realized at the end through this journey, they determined their own stakes. So I believe with my story, after all the emotional hardship, the nerves were based on mistakes I made not recognizing my personal power or how my self worth was all that mattered in my moms eyes. What shapes our sense of identity is our environment at home, and the things we experience growing up, for better or worse. I believe the stories we tell ourselves about life events form our character more, because if something happens to us, at the end of the day, it's our perception that labels it good, bad, or whatever. I also strongly believe life events could have less of an effect on an individual's character, or outlook on life, if they became more empowered in the moment. I believe as humans, we use the past as a crutch to say, this is the reason the way I am. If we experience trauma or are wronged, instead of turning it into something positive, I think many become identified with it. We replay the story, and say, this is the box I am in, and if you are in a box labeled victim, you will therefore experience similar patterns, with the same unworthy people that will use you. For me, I think I have grown and matured over the years, but I have realized my personal power. Much like Dorothy, theres something waiting for all of us we just don’t see, that's yet to be discovered waiting in our very own backyard. You do not have to go to Oz to realize the magic is all around us everyday, and inside ready to burst at the seams. As Dorothy says it best in the end “There is no place like home”.
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